Natural Bliss

I spent most of the weekend reflecting on my life and searching for what I really want to make of it. Unfortunately, I did not come to any conclusions but I do not see the time spent on the endeavor as a waste. For I have made a great deal of progress at becoming one with myself, accepting me for whom I am, discovering what it is I truly love, enjoy and disgust. I have learned a great deal about myself and hope that I can make the necessary changes in my life, no matter the consequences. Even if the road ahead calls for irrevocable pain, discomforting drama, or disheartening loses, I must endure what needs to be accomplished before reaching that blissful plateau of which my true self rests. Godspeed, Dave Johnson.

This morning I had a very uplifting experience. I woke up early, as I usually do these days, and rounded up the two dogs in order to get our run in before it gets too warm. Take it that it was almost 9 in the morning and it was already quite warm but not in the manner of being unpleasant. Sadie, Moses and I made it down to the Riverwalk and were enjoying the shaded trail and the cool breeze. We reached our midway point but I decided to go on just a bit more and was I glad that I did. Just up the trail was a wonderful spot to let the dogs loose and for them to play in the water. As I sat watching them, I got this sudden urge to take of my shoes and socks and wade in the water a bit. Next thing I knew, I was shirtless and swimming along side Sadie. (Moses still refuses to venture out passed the point where he can touch the ground.) As we were swimming, a canoe rolls up and passes. Its passengers greeted us with a hardy hello and were on their way. (I wanted to canoe so badly.) Anyways, back to our swimming. As I enjoyed the water, I found a spot in our secret little cove that had a moderately strong current flowing upstream. Impressed, I began swimming into it.

The current reminded me of those commercials for the small indoor/outdoor current pools that are designed for you to swim in place, which is exactly what I did for about 10 minutes or so. It was amazing and exhilarating. Afterwards I got out and sat on a rock for a bit while the dogs explored nearby. The only downfall of the whole experience was cutting my pinky toe on a rock after getting out of the water, which soaked half of my sock with blood on my returning run home.

It is amazing how such a simple, natural experience could shape the outcome of a day or drastically alter your current perception/mood. I hope it is as enjoyable tomorrow.

Well I am going to go look up some information on graduate schools here in South Carolina and work on a new resume. I am thinking about putting in a few applications in with a hospital in Charlotte. Apparently, my stepmother (or ex-stepmother) is in charge of a bunch of labs up there and has been bugging me to at least submit an application. I am not sure if anything will come of it but I am sure it won’t hurt.